We had the opportunity to attend Greyson's baptism the first of August. It was such a special day and we love him so much.
Greyson and his dad, Cam.
Cam, Mary and Greyson
Mary asked if the girls would sing When I am Baptized. They did a great job. It was wonderful to be with family and see Greyson make this choice. These are special days I hope we all remember.
What a crazy five weeks it's been with our Jace baby. It's been a little rough not having any semblance of routine. Never knowing when he'll be hungry or rocking him for hours. I'm grateful for the things I've learned through life coaching. I've learned that I control my actions through my thoughts. I'm definitely not perfect, but who is? We're all 50% amazing and 50% a hot mess. Most days I feel like a hot mess but I've learned to embrace it and feel every emotion. And sometimes there's a lot. I know it's a phase and I can survive one more day.
There was one day I really needed to get out of the house. I took the kids and drove to one of our favorite spots up Blacksmith Fork Canyon. It felt so good to be out in nature, it had been a long time. I wrapped Jace up in his sling and he actually slept the whole time which was lovely. The kids had a blast playing in the river, exploring and climbing the octopus tree.
I've come to understand that there's a mourning process that I go through with each baby. I mourn the freedom I once had, time spent with my other kids, a semi-clean house and time to myself. I love Jace fiercely but I've learned if I embrace the mourning, it doesn't feel quite so heavy and actually passes quicker than if I feel guilty about feeling it.
Hudson found a flat rock in the river and sat himself down on his "little chair".
The first real outing I took Jace on was the fair. Of course I worried about it being too hot and him crying the whole time, but sometimes you just have to do things to keep your sanity. He actually slept the whole time, go figure. It was fun going with Kristen and her kids.
Here's to pushing yourself to do hard things.
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